I've never been the kind that you'd call lucky
Always stumbling' around in circles
But I must have stumbled into something
Look at me
Am I really alone with you
I wake up feeling like my life's worth living
Can't recall when I last felt that way
Guess it must be all this love you're giving
Never knew never knew it could be like this
falling
It's amazing how just after 2 days of having a real good day, now, everything's turned 320 degress. Back to school today, maths and chem results are out. Woah..i'm so smart! I failed both papers! I'm so proud of that! Ya right...bull shit! 45% for maths and 27% for Chem. Fine...I don't care abt chem, but maths? shit! how the hell could I fail? Thanks to number patterns eh? arghh...what an awful day. I've broken down erm...let's count...5 times today? Everything's just not turning out right. I'm falling and I'm so tired of breaking down. I can't go on any longer. If I stay here, I'm going to break even more. I wanna head home, I really do. I can't be strong anymore, too many things has been hitting me right smack in the face. I can't handle it. I'm giving up. I know I shouldn't, but really, I'm tired of putting in effort into every damn thing, and not getting any results out of it. I must be born slow. Super slow. Argh...
Where's my comfort when I need it? It's so far away. No comfort for me this time.
CRYSTAL GABRIELLE ALEXIS KOH
4th feb'88
11 years of ij, murdoch college(Perth)