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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
I don't know why, but my title just says it all. It's really true. I only realised this just a few days ago. It struck me last night that there's both good and bad of being away from the ones you love. Distance brings some relationship closer, but yet some really far away, or worst, they might just end up walking out of your life. How scary is that!
How it struck me? Well, I spent the night at my sister's place last night. As you peeps may know, I was never close to my sister. We never did talk about stuff. But hmm...ever since we both came here, our sibling relationship has just grown! We've been talking a whole lot more as compared to when we were back home. She would tell me about school, her problems with school and even how much she misses home. That's what both of us talk about now. We've been supporting each other. Well, I guess that's because we've only got each other here. This just clearly shows that we should never take our siblings for granted! I definately realised that! I take back all my words that I used to say about my sis. I hate to say this, but I LOVE MY SISTER! Yes...you peeps must be thinking what the hell is wrong with me, but it's true, i really do! (:
She's been showing so much care and concern like a true sister does! We may be in Perth, but the thing is she's up north and I'm down south. The only times I get to meet her is like twice a month. I can't meet her everyweek. As a result, we only contact through msn. But yesterday and today was different! I had great fun at her place! She cooked dinner for me, made waffles for breakfast for me, made sure that I was comfortable at her place, and when I insisted on sleeping on the floor with a sleeping bag, she said "NO! the floor's too hard! You come sleep with me on the bed!"
and I told her this..."don't want lah, I kick you how?" and she said.."I'll kick you back! just sleep on the bed ok! then when it's cold, i'll hug you" hahah...when i heard that, my hair stood up! lol...but she was laughing at what she said too. We were laughing like mad in her small little room! so yes...I ended up sleeping with my sis in her small little single sized bed.
Oh yes...as transportation sucks here, i insisted on taking the bus home, but no..she insisted that i get my aunty's god bro to send me back because she thought that it's too dangerous for me to be heading home alone at 5pm. haha...awww...my sis loves me! i know that! haha..alright enought about that. One more thing...on Mon, i had a chance to experience University lecture! My sis sneaked me in! haha..it was so cool and interesting!
Anyway...on the other hand, distance also brings you further away from the people you love. Yes...absence does make the heart grow fonder. I guess that doesn't work for everyone does it? I don't know, but it sure works for for me. I'm really missing and loving everyone back home more each day. Especially Des and my parents. But oh well...that's a different story altogether eh? Relationship with friends?I guess some have drifted away and walked out of my life. It's really scary being so far away from the ones you love. You just never know what's going to happen or rather who's going to suddenly walk out of your life. For me..that's the really scary thing that hits me everytime I'm alone at night.But then again, I guess sometimes people do walk out of our lifes for a reason maybe because we're all taking different paths and changes are bound to take place.
I don't know...all I can say is that life seems be getting tougher ever since i turned 18. I'm not enjoying it, but i guess that's just life. And as we get older, we learn to become more mature. We HAVE to become more mature in order to handle the responsibilities that we may encounter as we grow older, and not forgetting the many decisions that we will need to make for the future. One thing for sure is that ever since i came here, I definately matured a whole lot. Even my mum says so. I just sent her pics a few days ago and her reaction was "girl...you've matured so much, you no longer look like a kid, you look 18 now" When I heard that, it struck me hard! Shit! I'm 18! What she said kinda made me feel, I don't know...weird. So many thoughts was running through my head. Yes i'm 18, more mature, more independent.
Well...to conclude this entry, to all of you out there...don't take your parents, siblings, friends and everything around you forgranted. To those under 18, enjoy life when you can! Don't complain about every little thing because everything's just going to be tougher as you grow older. Appreciate the people you have around you now because you never know when they're going to walk out of your life. And the most important thing, Thank God every single day for the people ard you! Especially your parents and friends! (:
LIL NOTES TO PEEPS I LOVE:
Dern Foo: babe, thanks so much for that talk 2 nights ago. you've been there for me ever since i arrived here. our friendship has definately grown. and i'm so thankful for a friend like you. thanks for always lending me your ears! (:
Dern Tsi: my lil helper! thanks for always dropping by my blog to leave me sweet lil msges that never fail to pick me up when i'm down. I can't wait to see you!
Huajia: Koala...i know that you've been so busy and all, but do remember that i'm here for you! tc my lil one. i'll be back soon to feed u leaves! thanks for always making me smile by telling me that you miss me! (: cos i'm missing u heaps too!
Sam Chu: sammmywammy...i miss you! thanks for dropping by every single day to read my blog! lol..you're my inspiration! haha...thanks for leaving funny and sweet msges behind! they sure make my day!(: i'll be seeing u in a few weeks! i'm simply looking forward to that! (:
Des: I don't know if you'll read this, but all i can say is that i really love you and i'm missing u the most. If anything should happen, i just want you to know that i'll always be here for you and nothing's going to change the way i feel for you. i doubt i'll ever get over you.
Mel: sweetie...pls study hard! your motivator's here for you! we'll work towards this end year togets alright? oh yes..Mel thanks so much for being such a sweet junior! the way you leave msges behind sure makes me smile! tc dearie! (:
To the rest of you:
haha...i'm so sorry if i didn't name you peeps, but that doesn't mean that i don't miss you peeps or i've forgotten abt you! haha..i definately miss all u peeps out there. thanks so much for ever damn thing! for friendship mainly! haha...tc all! *HUGGGGGGGS
CRYSTAL GABRIELLE ALEXIS KOH
4th feb'88
11 years of ij, murdoch college(Perth)